Being a Hard Head

This past week it was revealed to
me how hard headed I can be.
I went out of town, got lost, and
instead of listening to my inner Spirit
which was telling me, "you have got
to be still and draw closer to me, I
was trying to tell you not to come here"
But, no because I was only listening
to me...I took off alone to a city I knew
nothing about. Once lost, I still didn't
listen and just kept getting off at exits
asking directions. (which by the way were in
areas I had no business in.)
Finally, at 10:30 pm & high anxiety had
set in coupled with a heaviness I hadn't
felt in many years, I stopped, prayed,
and found my way back to the interstate
headed for Little Rock.
Along the road home God revealed to me
many things, including if I would meditate
and spend more time with His son, Jesus
many trials I experience would not be
sooo dramatic. If I would but do this one thing
He would reveal the tools and solutions to
remove mountains and open doors that
"I" have to work five times as hard to
accomplish. The saddest part to me, I know this.
There have been many times in my life my
hard head made things harder. There have
also been the times I did slow down, go to him,
and wha la everything seemed to work out
just spiffy and much quicker...sometimes I
am amazed and just can't help but shout,
"Look at what Jesus can do in your life"
To show you how good God is: I had reserved
a campground site just outside of St.Louis for
my stay.(I am a nature nut.) Turns out, there was an
escaped convict (a murderer) the police had
been told was in that very community..they
had not caught him but, had closed the entrances
off to that little city and this is why I couldn't
get in. In spite of my hard headedness and
determination to find that campground God
took control by using others (who were listening)
and they led me everywhere but, there. Praise God.
Once I was aware of what could have happened
is when I realized how many ways He had tried to
let me know...don't go.
My being such a hard head is but one lesson
I learned on this trip...but, a very important
lesson of which we will be dealing with. smile